one of the dangers of producing music / trading on your own is that you forget to do what it is that you are producing music / trading for.
yes, you produce / trade for yourself.
and yes, you produce / trade as a form of therapy.
spending hours tweaking a sound / study or working on an arrangement / annual report can be incredibly cathartic.
at times you meet other producers / traders, perhaps people who’s work you really admire ( that mostly music related as most other traders i’ve met are idiots 
)
at times you even get the chance to give your music to a top of the line DJ who’s crew was responsible for your genre of choice back in the day ( whoohooo yay me! )
the danger lies in producing music to stroke ones chin to.
you start to worry about what other producers /traders think, and other producers / traders become your benchmark.
you stop listening to anything other than the genre that youre trying to make.
and all that is responsible for music / returns getting stale and shitty, and all sounding the same.
somewhere along the line you forgot that music / the stock market is meant to reflect life and the living.
a dope track / trade becomes a dope track / trade because it resonates with the dance floor/ investor on a personal level.
because it reflects something about their lives.
because somewhere in the 4/4 boom boom boom / tick of the ticker tape, there in lies a reference that everyone recognises,…. either as an affirmation of their lives or as an escape from, or rebellion to their reality.
as a producer / trader,…..
you cant be cooped up in your studio / office doing nothing but learning your craft because that just turns you into an engineer / technician regardless of how good you are on the guitar / charts.
i’ve been having trouble finishing my track cos i’ve been doing just that.
i havent posted in a while because i’ve decided to go out and live a little.
a little beyond just “work”.
and its been hella fun and just a little bit scary at times.
i decided to have a quiet night tonight,…. fired up Renoise, and got an amazing amount done on my arabic jungle track.
i’m almost satisfied with it so it’ll be coming soon
and all it took was to step out of the comfort zone fortress i built around myself.
theres nothing like a bit of fresh air every now and again.
