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aside from the cybershakes and other symptoms that go along with Netwithdrawal, the past 2.5 days have been rather productive and relaxing at the same time.

as addictive as this blogging thing is, i’m proud to announce that i didnt succumb to the idea of dragging my laptop to the nearest Starbucks to blog and blogcheck. the idea did seem appealing to me i must admit, but its good to know that i’m not relapsing into the Netizen that i once was.

like any other addiction, of which i have had quite a few, it saps so much productive energy out of you, but you dont realise it until after the fact.

what i’ve managed to achieve in the 12 short months since i made a concerted effort to get off being online still surprises me πŸ˜› and while blogging still brings me back its a far cry from the hours i used to waste away online.

this is my methadone πŸ˜›

and ok, to be fair, my addictive personality isnt completely erradicated πŸ˜› it just replaced the previous addictions (from the benign to the severe), with the stock market. which some might say is perhaps just as severe as anything out there πŸ˜›

but hey atleast its a semi-respectable profession πŸ˜›

and incase anyones wondering, no i never had a need for methadone, and no i’ve never taken it :P.

so i actually got alot done, and enjoyed the sense of being disconnected once again.

i did alot of fiddleing about with a couple of tracks cos i figured out how to simulate distorted guitars,…. theres nothing quite like a good crunch πŸ˜›

i’ve also come to the conclusion that i ought to pen my own lyrics and do the vocals as well,…. if i can……

i figured that theres no point waiting for that one person that’ll work well on my tracks cos that day may never come.

and as scary as it sounds, i thought to myself : if you want something done right do it yourself.

then i laughed out loud at the idea, and got a weird look from the person standing in line infront of me.

so i’ve been studying trent reznor of nine inch nails, rage against the machine, and just about anything i hear. and i think i’ll be studying them for quite a while before i even attempt to put anything down.

they do say to do something that scares you, and this is more harrowing than driving into iraq, without a map(my directions were take this road and drive north), crappy arabic and no body armour which i’ve done a couple of times.

so what the hell πŸ˜› here goes nothing πŸ˜€ !

heres something i heard earlier that really struck a chord:

For of all sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: β€œIt might have been!”

from Maud Muller by John Greenleaf Whittier

its a long poem but its worth a read.

its deceptively simple, but it evokes memories and emotions i’m sure everyone has felt at some point.

if you have a hammock in a garden read it there πŸ˜›



  1. Eh urself… I see ur posts stretching beyond the horizon by the day πŸ˜›

    Firstly I love any type of addictions. You live once so you might as well…. But I do understand the need to detach yourself from something you intensely need; for me it was the challenge of stretching my mind to the point of no return and returning… even though I prolly didn’t really go far enough :-p

    It’s true about doin it yourself, at least until you find someone who shares the same enthu and passion as you.You go, babe!!! I’m sure me will likey πŸ™‚

    ….. I stopped writing suddenly once, and I cant seem to get it back- worse still it was the one way I can actually vent…

    And if you go to Iraq again, please wear you seatbelt (I guess)…

  2. 😦 😦 Maud Muller makes my heart sink…….

  3. lol @ “you only live once so you might as well”

    despite the good intentions of that saying, i must admit thats gotten me into more trouble than i care to recall πŸ˜›

    of course they came along with some great stories to tell when i’m old an wrinkly πŸ˜›

    and cheers for your vote of confidence πŸ˜€

    yeah after reading maud muller i let out a long melancholic sigh for everything that could have been.

    but,… it makes me grin at the thought of everything yet to come πŸ˜›
    and as sad and depressing as the poem is,…that is the moral of the story:P

  4. lol my replys are geting long as well 😐

  5. I have just finished April. Starteing to get addicted. Not a very good sign though.
    Just a few remarks:
    1.You tend to forget to categorize your posts, unfinished business! And I need to find these posts easily.

    2.Now I have another idea for a post. With the vocabulary. Typing it down will help me memorize it πŸ˜€

    I know I should be doing something else by now, so I got to get going…

  6. Thank you for actually taking the time and explaining each word πŸ˜€

    Now I can post about it πŸ˜›

    And yes you posted more than you think you did, much more!

  7. I know I know…
    I should be sleeping already πŸ˜›

  8. saps, methadone, erradicated, fiddleing, distorted, crunch, trent reznor, harrowing, struck a chord? πŸ˜›

  9. I don’t think you’re less addicted than you used to be -not that I know the time you actually spent surfing or chatting- you just replaced that with browsing and researching! Am I right?

  10. saps, drains
    methadone, a drug strong enough that they give it to recovering heroin addicts
    erradicated, got rid of
    fiddleing, playing with
    distorted, changing the original
    crunch, ummm its the distortion type thing you hear on a guitar
    trent reznor, front man for nine inch nails
    harrowing, scary
    struck a chord, hit a nerve

    yeah i think youre right about the replacement πŸ˜›

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